Think Twice

June 18, 2008 at 4:04 pm | In Life, Love, Relations & Stuff, Me Myself & I, Thoughts | 16 Comments

I have been brought up to keep my mouth shut whenever someone argues with me. “Whatever they say, they don’t mean it so don’t argue”, mum would say or “It’s because they care they say that”. So, the “Listen from this ear and let it out from the other” motto was planted in my head.

Anyways,  I grew up like this. I found myself feeling better when I wrote. I had about 40 diaries from middle school until a year into my marriage. I poured my heart in them. I got rid of them eventually, as the thought of dying one day and someone reading them scared me!

Anyways, a question I want an answer to is why do people think it’s ok to hurt people who are calm, don’t fight back and aren’t hot-tempered BUT make sure they don’t say something (yisawwoon lohom alf 7isab) to people who are stubborn, inconsiderate and hot-tempered? Especially when they are wrong? 

You might think I should say something. I know my mum was wrong.

But now, I really think life is not worth it.

Yes, I do get hurt and suffer. Still, I think before I say something because I don’t like to leave scars on other people’s hearts.

People die every minute. Leaving everything behind, family, money, luxury… etc.

Don’t people realize they can leave this world any second?

Don’t they know that once they leave it, there’s no coming back or fixing what they left behind?

I hope everyone thinks before he/she opens his/her mouth because the verbal scar doesn’t go away like the physical one.

Please don’t waste time and years on silly matters! It doesn’t really matter who is wrong and who is right.

Spread love and peace, be forgiving and live happily! How easy is that? Yet people complicate things!

Love,

:) ;)

P.S: So when are we going to that island NewBride? ;) 

Why Is It So Hard?

May 25, 2008 at 9:16 pm | In Family, Life, Me Myself & I, Self-esteem, Thoughts | 22 Comments

To move on?

When changes happen in our lives?

Sometimes it’s like everybody is moving while I stand still, in the same spot, holding on to the past or something that is long gone..

Maybe I just can’t accept the changes..

:(

P.s: Sorry about the pathetic mood I am in for the last few days but I cannot help it.

Those were the days..

May 22, 2008 at 10:05 pm | In Family, Life, Me Myself & I, Memories, Personal, a-ha | 21 Comments
  • I miss the visits to my grandma’s, Allah Yir7amha, house in Mansouriya. We used to go there, and then to my aunt’s house in the back. I remember playing inside the van ‘Waneet’ which was always parked outside, though I never knew to whom it belonged. 
  • I miss playing in 7adiqat el Mansouriya.
  • I miss seeing my grandma at breakfast each morning when I was in Kuwait. She can’t do it anymore but I keep remembering that.
  • I miss uncle ‘Y’ Allah yir7ama when he used to come to my mother-in-law’s house (his sister) each night for dinner. He used to eat khoboz o jibin or soup or kebab. He was the most humble modest man I know.
  • I miss my best ‘relative’ friend. I remember the days when we used to stay long hours, in her room, just reading magazines and cutting what we want. Or, translating and looking up every word in the dictionary we didn’t know from an A-HA song. Though we are not together any more, I truly wish her well and all the best.
  • I miss aunt ‘M’ Allah yir7amha. I don’t really know what exactly to mention about her because there was and will never be anyone like her.
  • I miss the days when we used to record tamthiliyyat (Tv shows) with my brothers. The Monopoly games and the so7oor in Ramdan.
  • I miss the gatherings on Wednesdays. Used to be my favourite day of the week.
  • I miss uncle ‘M’ Allah yir7ma. I miss his visits to my house in Switzerland. He stayed with me two times and during that time, I got to know the real him, which not many know unless you live with him. 
  • I miss her, although I haven’t seen her for a long time, and now she’s gone. 
  • I just miss everything and hate the changes but all I can say is Al Hamdilla 3ala kil 7al.
  • There are so many other things but I can’t write anymore. My heart is aching and I so need a hug :( .
P.S: I am really sorry to all my relatives who are reading this. I know they relate to a lot of the things I said so I am really sorry if I made you feel bad but I felt I had to let it out somewhere.

Stuff..

May 19, 2008 at 9:06 am | In Kuwait, Life, Me Myself & I, Thoughts | 11 Comments
  • Although I was not in the voting thing going on in Kuwait, I got annoyed at the results and felt sad that there are stupid citizens out there sadly.
  • I didn’t know that those ‘mindless’ parliament members get a salary?! loooooooool 3ala shino ya 7athi!
  • It’s raining.
  • My  neck is killing me.. Shino el 7al ya rabbi!
  • Abi baskoot O 7aleeb.
  • I miss Kuwaiti supermarkets. Sometimes I want something in the middle of the night and BAM, everything is closed by 7 here. Uffff.. not to mention Sundays they are closed too. But I love CooP.
  • Nothing home delivers here, except for Domino’s pizza.
  • I need to take my son to the creche now, it’s 9.10.
  • See you later.

Mabrook

May 18, 2008 at 11:24 am | In Kuwait, Life | 19 Comments

It’s over and the same people came back..

What’s the point?

The women are stupid WHY are they voting for usless men while we know if they don’t vote for men, women CAN make it to the parliament? We all know we are the higher voters! 

Roundabout

March 30, 2008 at 7:14 pm | In Family, Life, Love, Relations & Stuff, My Kids, Personal | 16 Comments

 

Do you ever feel like going round & around in circles without getting anywhere?

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Like in an argument, your voice isn’t heard?

I try to convince my son when we argue about things sometimes.

I try to show him and make him understand but he doesn’t seem to understand.

It’s really hard, he just won’t listen unless you give him a reason he believes in or an answer he wants to hear.

We just listened to our parents back then, what happened now?

Why can’t we just say no and the kids obey? 

Kids are too open minded those days I feel so sorry for them. It’s like they don’t even enjoy an innocent healthy childhood. 

It makes me feel bad and afraid of the future. 

 

Lost

March 22, 2008 at 12:54 am | In Life, Me Myself & I, Self-esteem, Thoughts | 16 Comments
 
Do you ever feel lost?
In a gathering, in a crowd, or in life in general?
 
Alot of people tell me that they found themselves at a certain age. 
It could be a change you’ve always wanted to change in yourself,
getting something you’ve been dreaming about all your life,
or achieving something you’ve been longing to achieve.
 
El hamdilla, I know I am blessed with a couple of things in my life.
 
Still..
 
I somehow feel I want something more.
I am not sure yet what it is.
 
But.. 
 
I hope I do soon.
And I am pretty sure I will find my way.
 
Soon Inshallah. 

On Being a Mum

March 9, 2008 at 10:43 am | In Family, Kuwait, Life, Love, Relations & Stuff, Marriage, Me Myself & I, Memories, My Kids, Personal | 17 Comments

I thought I’d write this so that people understand what I meant by my last post. Beware, it is quite long!

As you all know, I live abroad. In the early years, I had to stay in Kuwait to complete my studies as I was in the first year of college.  My husband’s family took care of my son while I was attending my lectures and stuff. 

When I officially graduated, I couldn’t believe it. It was like a dream! It was like this day is never coming, you know. That sense of achievement & happiness I felt that day was a feeling I never forgot. I could  finally live like a proper family, you know.

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Then came my little son, bless him (that’s his feet in the hospital BTW). I had him in 2005. He was our little miracle. We never thought we would have a second child and he was a surprise. Home management became more difficult but I enjoyed every bit of it it. I didn’t like to complain.

Before I had him, I used to take coures and stuff when my big son was in school. But this time, I stopped and dedicated my time for him.  When he got his diabetes at one years old, the world crumbled and those three weeks at the hospital were an unforgettable experience. He started going to the nursery recently. It makes him interact with kids and have lots of fun. They have been very helpful and learned everything regarding his condition. 

Look, I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me, I am perfectly fine as I am. I am happy. There are some advantages in raising your kid on your own, away from everybody. But, what I am trying to say is you do need help sometimes. All the mums who have family around them are lucky. The have mums, sisters, in-laws to help them for at least a couple of hours while say, you sleep, study, shop..  etc anything! 

Although I have to mention that my husband does help when he can, like if I want to cook for an invitation or if I have to go to a doctor. I really appreciate that. He’s a great dad and loves being with his kids.

It’s annoying when some people think I am fathya, and that I don’t have anything to do. They laugh when I say I can’t go here or there, Like ” Shino 3ndich? You don’t have anything to do” . Just because I am not working doesn’t mean I have a lot of free time!

BTW, there’s a big difference between having one kid and more. Having two or more is demanding, each child has his own needs.  

I don’t mean leaving your kids to the maids.

I don’t mean going out everyday with friends and not spending time with your kids.

I mean, just a couple of hours, if not minutes on your own, perhaps just reading a book! 

Having said that, I believe you should try to spend as much time as possible with the kids when they are small. Time flies quickly and you might regret that later!

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